Pursuit of Happiness

Happiness is a word that nobody can define accurately. To me, happiness is an emotion that exists in us only when we were children. During our childhood every single little things used to make us happy, including the memories of childhood. After our childhood happiness gradually decreases day by day and it disappears one day. When we come to realize that there is no happiness exists in us now...then we try to figure out what happened. We all try to get that emotion back by all the external things...persons...places...etc. I think this emotion can only be found only within us. Some of us realize it soon and try to be happy within ourselves but it causes another disaster. We start to fake our happiness and show off it with pride. When your fake happiness is known to all then this fake happiness can not exist in you anymore. After realizing this fact we want to make sure that it must not be a show off or a fake one. Now we are confused between asking "what is happiness" and "where is happiness"! We completely forget that happiness is an emotion that can only exist within me. Not in definitions or people or places.
In the end I can tell that this is exactly what happened to me and I'm still struggling to find it out within me.

'valo' valo lagena

Onekei ache english horofe bangla lekha dekhte pare na. Amar office er pc te Avro install kora nei ar downloader software tar trial period shesh hoye jawate evabei likhchi. Amar obossho Banghlish likhte temon kharap lage na. mukher vashatai likhchi mone hoy tai.
Office e onek kaj. motamoti guchieo enechi. Ar ghonta kheneker majhe chuti hobe. Bashay jabo. aj 2012 te eshe aro valo vabe realize korlam amar life ta besh shomoy mafik egocche. school-college-university-job+university...ekdom choke badha. ekdomi choke badha jibon hoye geche. out-of-the-box bolte chaile ami hoyto hachre-pachre du-ekta jinish bolte parbo. kintu amar alossho sheshob shompurno korte deyni kokhono. ar ejonno ami nijei dayi.
'kharap' achi bolte gele abar udahoron tene bolte hobe ei ei karone ami kharap achi. sherokom udahoron ber koratao kothin hobe amar jonno. kintu eto 'valo'o je keno valo lagche na jani na!
kal rate ekta ghotona chokhe porlo. 17 bochorer ekta chele takar jonno akuti janacche. bone marrow transplantation korte hobe. she jonnno 30-40 lac taka lagbe. video ta dekhe eto kharap laglo je kanna atkate parlam na. mon mante chay na. tahole ki ami shotti e valo achi. valo thakle keno bujhte parchi na ami valo achi?!